I can do it

Another dull day at home. It's beautiful outside. I could go for a walk, but I want to be alone. I don't want to be among people, and there are a lot of people outside today. I can think when I'm alone. About my family, school, Ishank. All these thoughts stress me out sometimes, but I need to think. I need to know my own feelings and to learn from them. Sometimes I feel that life is so difficult, so unfair. But then I think about the people who don't even have the luxuries that I have. People who deal with bigger problems than mine.

The other day I was reading an article in Glamour magazine about a guy who was perfect in every way before he had an accident and was confined to a wheel chair for the rest of his life. Although his life shattered around him, he carried on like any other normal human being.

A few days back, my manager at work told me that she was kidnapped and gang raped when she was eighteen. she said that she never filed a complaint because she was just happy to be alive. I couldn't believe it. I couldn't believe that after all these years she was still standing in front of me and smiling. When she told me it brought tears to my eyes. I told her how strong she was.

So, I need to stop thinking that life sucks because it sucks more for some other people I know. But I'm also scared. Scared to go outside for a walk. What if something bad happens to me? I know that being scared is never going to help me accomplish anything. One day I have to live alone and do everything on my own. I need to be strong and tell myself that i can do it.